Just over 1 year ago, and after over 30 years of being desk bound in offices, I launched Monumental Cakes. I had no idea we were about to be thrown into a global pandemic or I may have thought twice! However, I was able to adapt and keep working throughout this difficult period and I am really grateful to the many new customers for whom I have been able to provide a little cake relief. Things are still very up and down, and I am constantly trying to supress that little voice in my head that keeps telling me I’m not good enough!
Being a self-employed sole trader is hard. No sick or holiday pay, trying to balance outgoings with incomings, marketing the business and myself in order to find new customers, and trying not to panic if there are empty spaces in the calendar.
I am a Christian, and as such, I have a faith that God has a plan for me. However, I also believe that God doesn’t expect me to sit back and wait for him to make things happen. Trying to discern what path to take in order to achieve His plan for my future is difficult. You don’t always have a clear voice in your head. I certainly didn’t wake up one day and clearly hear a booming voice saying “Tracy – stop working – you need to set up your own business making cakes!” It doesn’t quite work like that, although I know many people who say they have experienced that sort of intervention! My method is to look at the paths in front of me and weigh up the options. If I go this way, will it do harm? If the immediate answer is no, then why not give it a go? If it is the wrong path, then it will soon become clear. That’s pretty much the way my conversation went with Mr. Monumental just over 12 months ago, and here we still are. Like many people right now, I have no idea what the future holds. I am going to take it one day at a time and trust that I am following the right path and if God has something else in mind, then those opportunities will appear.
One of my favourite bible verses is from Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” This is only a very small part of the story. These words were written at a time of many years of testing and trial, pain and sorrow, darkness and uncertainty. We are living today in similar times, and I encourage you to look up and read these verses in order to seek assurance, comfort, strength, and the will to walk the path that God will lead us to.
If you have never prayed, then I encourage you to give it a go. www.trypraying.co.uk provides a simple prayer guide for people who are not religious and don’t do church. It will help you get to know God and pray about things that are important to you. Or click to visit Pembury Baptist Church facebook page. There you will find videos of some of our members reading their favourite bible verses and explaining why they are important to them.